Monthly Archives: January 2015

Crack Addiction

Crack Addiction

Nathan is addicted to the crack.  Not sure if he just feels safer surrounded by walls like he was in his tiny crib. But this is typically how we find him each night.  Steve and I have made it a habit now of running into the boys room and moving them into their beds before we call it a night.

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How is this comfortable?!?

 

test

test

I think I might be pregnant.  Steve and I have been trying for a while now.  Today is day 33 of my cycle.  I’m usually pretty regular at 28 days.  I tried to look back at my old blog posts about symptoms I was feeling when I was pregnant with the boys but I didn’t start posting until well into the pregnancy.  So here’s how I’m feeling… Right around when my period normally would’ve started I felt just like I would had it started.  I was PMSing (angry at Steve), and I felt some light cramping.  But my period never happened… My hair and skin both feel very soft.  I don’t have any pimples like I normally would get at this time.  Today I had some slight back aches for a few hours.  I am scared to pee on a pregnancy test strip because I don’t want to know if I’m not pregnant, I’m enjoying fantasizing about our little family growing to 5 and me experiencing the miracle of pregnancy for the second time.   I did, however, pee on some ovulation test strips. Each time I pee on those they come back very dark positive.  I read on a few sites online that the opk tests measure a similar hormone to pregnancy so a lot of women who are pregnant have positive lh surges.  So that’s a good sign. I might pee on a pregnancy test stick tomorrow if I don’t bleed today.  If it is positive I’m going to be so excited!  If I am, I kinda want to keep it a secret from Steve until Valentine’s day and do something special to surprise him.  I don’t know if I’ll be able to hold in my excitement for an entire month not to mention keep a secret that big.  He’s pretty observant… he’ll probably guess on his own.

A week ago last Friday Steve and I went into a fertility clinic in Baltimore.  This time was so different from last.  Last time we were desperate and scared and wanted a family.  This time we already had two beautiful kids.  We were calling the shots, not the doctors.  After the appointment was over we decided that we wouldn’t get help until June or July of this year.  Wouldn’t it be great if we could do it on our own?!?  For fear of TMI’ing whoever is reading this post, the start of my last period was December 17th, 2014.  Steve and I had sex on the 24th, 26th, and 27th.  Then on the 27th I took an ovulation test and it came back dark positive which likely means that I either already ovulated or was going to any minute.  But that was on day 11 of my cycle which felt a little early.  We had a lot going on so we didn’t have intercourse again for a while so I thought for sure we missed our opportunity this month.  If we are pregnant that would mean a little baby September 17th – 23rd.  So excited!

It’d be weird if it randomly worked this time.  I am racking my brain about what has changed this month compared to all those other months of being unsuccessful.  The biggest thing I can think of is my sit to stand desk and the treadmill.  I’m getting well above 10,000 steps a day and feel more energized and healthy.  Whereas before, just because of the nature of my job, I was lucky to get 5,000 steps a day.

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Update 1/19: I’m pregnant!!!  The test strip is a very very dark positive line.  Granted the tests expired in 2012 but I’m still going to assume it’s a positive.  I’m beyond excited.  Luckily Steve went to work early today because I ran down stairs to hang out with the boys and told them they were going to be big brothers.  I told them there was going to be a little baby in about 9 months to which Nathan said “baby”.  Then I asked them if they wanted to have a little sister or a little brother.  Anthony immediately said “sister” and Nathan hesitated and said “brother”.  So at least one of them is going to be happy with the outcome.